If i become a memory.

Hey peeps...A good smile for you today..How was your day?

*mumbling...singing...
Di manakah pemandangan terindah di dunia?
Puas ku cari setelah jauh melangkah
Hingga takdir menyuluh ke arah mu
Ku temu pemandangan itu terlakar di wajahmu

Oh kasih, oh kasih
Ku berterima kasih
Padamu kerana menyempurnai hidupku

Dan sakit dah sungguh aku asyik terjatuh
Jatuh cinta dengan kamu

Dalam berjuta-jutaan lagu
Tiada satupun dapat menenteramkan kalbu
Melainkan bila kau menyebut
Ke telinga bahawa kau juga sayang padaku

Dengan setiap lafaz kata
Harapan makin menyinar
Untuk kita bersama membina hidup bahagia
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alright..Dont misunderstand me..I dont have any other meaning just felt this song was super nice..i felt very comfy after hearing it..click here to listen
When heard this conversation from this two funky dee jays after i have done meeting my favourite person in my life..
they gave a topic about..
SINGLE IS GOOD OR COUPLE BETTER??funny one..
this is answered by all kind of people..
HAPPY COUPLE: of course i think couple is better!!!! *start smooching...
HAPPY SINGLE(male): well yea i feel SINGLE IS BETTER..because i dont have to spend extra money!
HAPPY SINGLE(female): No couple equall to no heart broken no tears..But somehow..lonely tho~i need someone to care for me..
BROKEN UP FELLA(male and female):Most of them will said. IS JUST A SHIT MEMORY I HAVE IN MY LIFE..PUKE PUKE GAG GAG...
chill my friends outside..
my conclusion of the story is: Sometime people tend to forget those happiness after you have broken up..Because you will only remember how bad he or she treated you..How bad he or she hurt your heart..How bad his or her words to you..How bad he or she shoo you out of their life..
think back..Your once happy..Aint it?
but the statement made by the broken up fellas will not be always true..How untrue? figure out yourself..try to think from the one who being dumped and the one who dumped people..Lol.
peeps, realise what your heart says?? Any decision that you guys made..MATTERS!
Im here smiling wide..throwing my unhappy out from the air plane..I never cry... cause you never care..
finally i found the best way to travel..lol.
hello, London eye..

how pretty..
p/s:i have found out a way that will make you stop your tear from flowing..Is to breath in breath out HARDLY! like asthma people.I did something like that lately..
p/s:whenever you were trying to get through me..Im already not here..

*never a ballerina.

realised.

few more days to go..
i really wish to travel..as i had told my friends..
How beautiful will London's night view be?
must be peaceful and elate..I will never forget you..My love..Princess Diana.
Im sitting here and realise..

p/s:i have never accuse you from the beginning..Is all real..i felt so idiotic..

tomorrow will be a good day..
cant wait to go..

*never a ballerina.

letter for you. last one.

you,
when i started to be happy, youre the one who made me down again..
when i saw hopes..you just let it varnished.
you can be mean but i cant..
okay now i cant see anything..
you feel happy?
you feel sour?or wat?
i guess in this world noOne ever understand you.. but somehow i felt i do..but sorry i cant help you this time..
because you choose to let me go..
I knew inside you..You were lonely..
In this lonely world, you need me just because you were lonely..once you told me you dun have friends..Till now..right now..still the same..I understand..I think this is why you behave like this..I dun blame you..I dont...
i sorta feel................................
i have done packing my luggage that showed i have to go..
Mel slapped me..I have no choice to wake up..
this is not the ending that i want..But i have no choice..
i have to ''Mengganas'' because i need a smile..
i can smile when im with you..but maybe youre not the one who smiling..
i wish 2 advice you..but i cant write it here..
i cant tell you in Msn..because im no longer there..
so, take care..
thanks for the words that you said dat day.. ''you will be missing me''..
i believed you..really do..
but blame that we have no more fate..we used all i guess..
this will be the last letter that im writting to you and the last moment that i mentioned about you in my life..perhaps.
perhaps time will brush away my pain and my sadness..
perhaps time will let you realise who are you and what are you doing..
perhaps time....i have no idea..I want to help you..but i really cant..

perhaps somewhere in ur heart....once you loved me ..

truthful,
sobbing babyls..(my last called)

p/s:sicked..

*never a ballerina.

Zulu nation.

hey people,
how are you?? wat are you people doing out there?? drinking? clubbing?lol
i just got my revision done..Not all..i mean all of the day!
i actually went back to college to see my julie biscuit..Im sorry dear i couldnt attend the meetings for twice! im like an outcast tho..
anyway..Ju ju explained everything to me.Actually it has to be a top secret..Mean dance club have to keep this as a suspend..But i think i can tell some out..lol
actually is nothing to be suspended! Im hell looking forward to the 9th of October.
Before that, ANOUNCEMENT!
we will be having a ''D-DAY T-SHIRT DESIGN''..the winner , your shirt will be made for our official dance club Tee!
We will have alot of special Guests on that day..
Is all my job..woohoo.
I contact royal phantom dance studio..Hopefully they will give me a GOOD reply.. haha
and Zulu Nation.I knew floor fever crew was the commity of Zulu Nation.I was trying to get them to my college and inspired those young people..Spreading the hip hop and street culture..SOUNDS COOL AINT IT..
and it will be a SPONTANEOUS BATTLE on that day..
if im not mistaken is 1-1 battle..i will try 2 persuade Jul to give maximum 3 person.
the crowd will decide..
and alot more..Stay ''tuned''..
p/s:have to practice my six step after exam.haha
I captured this.. it was at night but i duno why the tree looked green..Lol
p/s:give a swine to a parent whose daughter or son study in my ex school!! you were such a SOCIETY GARBAGE! i was waiting for my sister today and this stupid old lady wanted to go out from all the cars!..please! cant you just wait awhile instead of pressing your stupid hon! Your daughter or son must be an idiot too because HE OR SHE duno how to stop their parent from this ''MONKEY BEHAVIOUR'' probably her idiot gene passes to her idiot children! (underlying assumptions)
*never a ballerina.

quarantine.birthday!

nervous..lup dup..lup dup..i was looking at my watch..8am!! Missing Jesslynn and Joanne..they will be having their practical test now..haha Me and Vee vian will be in the second shift..
yeah as u know..Second shift people have to be quarantined! yeah..i get 2 quarantine with ah ehrm in the same hall.. vee vian knew it..we were sitting at the same row..haha no big deal tho..
Mr.charmaine behave like a ''eight women''..she checked my bag..to ensure that i did not have any electronic devices with me..she saw my ANNA SUI purse..she cant open it..she said..dun u find it hard 2 open..i was just laughing==...
it was scary at 1st to be quarantined..but yet we enjoyed it..haha
this is the first time i get to finish my practical in two hours!!
p/s:to the previous person before me..you must be a dirty fella!!!lol
D-DAY coming soon!!
dance day i supposed!!!!
ya hoo~~
p/s:i have got a SECRET!~
owh yea..
there was a birthday boy today..

HAPPY BORNED DAY TO
NIC CHIN!! aka CHIN zai..

credited to von..haha nice picture..
look at his fellesty face..i mistaken him with fellest during strictly street..haha there goes to now..haha good listener i supposed..have fun..
happy 18th..
DANCE TO LIVE~have a blast!
famous strikes..

*never a ballerina.

shouldnt be here..

i really shouldnt be here.. but somehow i need to write.. Tho i know it cant make my heart feel any better..
yeah im not gonna write poignant stuff..keep showing my weakness knowing that people might be laughing loud behind..yeah i shouldnt..
Im not mean..seriously not mean.. I will always curse but i will never mean it..
because im always have this ''idiot principle'' that ''you can treat me not good but i cant treat you the same..''
if im treating you back the same way you treat me,then there is no different between me and you..''
silence will be the best way i supposed..i really scare to write futher because i scare of that insult and laughters..
perhaps this will be the last..
i was the embodiment of pain.
Self-pity and hatred have been part of me for so long that I no longer notice their existence.
It seems odd that someone so filled with self-anger would be so selfish.

Am I that bad of a person?
Am I that selfish?

*never a ballerina

Autumn in my heart.

hey peeps,
i gave myself a holiday..so im totally out from college for a day..yeah
went vee vian house for bout 6 hours..haha fetch my sis back from school today..sounds like a holiday to me..
i just came back..know what?
when i was on my way back..i passed by a road...which i used to belong..im wonder..why my car brought me here..looking at the place that i used to see so much last time..
nah..sounds like some soaps and dramas.. but yea u know its part of my life..
i was confused...i was puzzled..God, give me a sign, give me a clue, give me the easiness to help me getting through these all…..yeah is hard to explain the feelings.. i took 10 minutes to drive around the places..Physically, i looked stupid..Mentally, my mind told me..just do it..for the sake of the last..no sign of regret..(u noe i hate regrets)... yeah statisfy..trying my best to put down the hard rock..there is only one thing i know for now..
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at least ure happy.. :)

Reason from OST Endless Love -
hey if u wana listen to the full song..CLICK HERE.

You know how phrases and words can cause a quick memory? A swift flashback of each other? It’s as if every verse I hear or read holds a new meaning now; everything somehow related to you..
i dont like the constant desire to sob..i just wanted to escape..
p/s:wont be here for while..
p/s:To leave. To retreat. To disappear.

*never a ballerina.