im back home.. the two days i live in tired , worries , painful and slight elated.. now..online is my biggest fear...fear i will see something which im not supposed to.. thus,i will less come here..unless i need my consultants.. well,nothing much to descibe about my day.. happy moment who wouldnt know..yeah, frankly im not sad tho.. those emo words that i have made is just my reconcil'ness.. nothing to sad about i watched alot of this scence in the movies and dramas..it seems God wana made my life to be dramatic.. well,im always enjoying it..the feeling is so real.. and these few days..i have some weird feelings..um..well cant tell ya..if not it wont come true... now theres some words i needa ban.. *sacrifies(bull shit) *fake(swine shit) *believe( go away) *truthful(nah...faker) *promises(piii!) yeah..gtg..have to study.. *never a ballerina.
refuse to comply... i knew somehow im soft hearted..but no more! i regretted of doing that...i shouldnt shouldnt i really shouldnt... handling the bad consequences..i should say..''padan muka to me''...haha genting night was beautiful..waiting for merdeka concert.. thank God..it full-filled my rotten heart..
p/s:i lost weight..alot alot..haha yeah good news for me.. saw that korean two days ago..wonder why he kept looking at me..haha he sorta look like ''young-jae''..(if u noe who i meant)..i love calling him ''BI''sounds cuter..yeah and im the ''ji-eun''..lol i did dreamt bout him coming 2 my college and bang into my head and yeah u noe..omg..i hope it will come true..thank God for giving me such a nice dream..
p/s: i have to attend alot of dance events..so that i can meet him again..haha mistaken he is fellest once again. topics are made. p/s: speechless towards my current life. i cant find the purpose of life..i have tried my very best..but luck is always not by my side.. p/s: i have tried my very best 2 present myself..but (....) stil choose the hard way.. p/s: i realised things can be changed but (...) choose the hard way and when it return to me..is all my fault again????!!!! p/s: things can ''not to be done''..but (...)still do it.. to suffer yourself..tho i know you deserved it. p/s: Love isnt a game..why they are so many players..? p/s: Im officially transformed..to a playful girl..in short a ''playgirl''..i used to be one last time. p/s: I need to get a victim..yeah stay away from me.. p/s: sorry my Lord..i cant forgive..my heart is not open to forgive.. p/s: felt so funny when people behave stupidly.. p/s: felt so angry when efforts are put into it..but never get back anything.. p/s: emotional is WRONG? p/s: cant blame anyone..the road that i have chosen after falling down so many times..Im stil so stubborn..thinking of the ''BRIGHT SIDE'' that everything will be okay after all..But I FELL even deeper..and GET the name of ''PASSIVEMISTIC'' because i never think of the good side...is it??? am i passivemistic???and the road i have chosen still, after so many injuries..is it mean im hard to believe things?? if im then why would i? p/s: thinking of the thing..made me cant turn my head over because i have to stop myself before i turn insane. p/s: im just an ordinary girl in someone's eyes.. p/s: totally out of my expectation.im a loser. p/s: YOU will never see me cry.. p/s:i cant express all my feelings out..i will scare u guys man..haha p/s: is my consultation time..he is waiting 4 me.. p/s:God i promise you i will love myself more.. thanks for delete of part of my memories..i felt much better right now.. see ya.
will update.. 2mrw will be a fun day!! more pictures!
p/s:genting here i come. edited****************************
ONE MALAYSIA.
pissed!!!!..the mozzila shut off my everything...wat the hell.. yea im so gonna rewrite my everything again.. Lucus Lisa and Jason did a good work..i love the video.. YEAH, i shall let the pictures do the talking.. im in a low mood..haha im happy..it was great..i felt im a real TAYLORIAN after so many light years.. we took part in this culture thingy and yeah it was so gallant! oh yea one more thing..so there was a woman asking Ms.Logesh when she was buying her food..''ARE THEY MODELS???''*glares.. ms.logesh giggling and said''they are my students!!''...she was so proud i supposed..we were as good as a model. lets welcome the four shawtties!!!! Jesslynn!! lien siaw!! Joanne!!veevian!!well, this is just the begining..more pictures to be posted..this post is gonna be a long post..im so tired now..i think i should let Joanne post some of the picS instead of posting all..so if u guys wana see more of her pretty pics can visit her blog. we found some nice locations to take pictures..which is the centre of the street..we sorta grabbed all the eyes around..haha so yeah..enjoy..jo se!taken by Jesslynn..SO DSLR..Vee vian looking her reflection on the water..funky indian~~~ idiana and nyonya..hahacandid..so pro shot.. trying to do some indian dance in the middle of the street.. yoga'ing..um...horny'ing..LOL. looked like some models aint it?????u noe wat we were trying to present?? well some weird comics.. back to college:i felt this picture looked like those artist get snaped photo by a bunch of paparazzi after got down from the plane.. we were looking for photographer and we found clairee..haha thanks to her..from the left,me jesslynn ,MS.surinder,Ms.chermaine,vee vian and Joanne.den we went down to the enterance and we did some photo shooting too..i saw my senior and he looked good..but too bad..haha Joanne said his nose sengek..eyes so small..haha anyway, its so so so fun.. i rate today 90% blissful..the other 10% will be we still needa study.. looked at the cute GEORGE.! raising flag. the mother and the daughter. mum always deactivate her laughing nerve.. vee vee got married..with ahh erhmm..yeahphotograpy session..haha i love this picture..awww.. we were so patrotic.. ONE MALAYSIA. me and Mr.William..Indiana with Mr.WILLIAM.Mr.william is Joanne's father..and im her DUDE..haha me and nyat sian..my dance mate.andrea was the one at the most leftfunny face..im such a attention grabber. phew..im on my way to the end..yeah heres the final storm.. the GOLDEN PETALS.. peeps,have fun reading.. is a piece of my hard work..just to keep you people entertained.. love ya..~ lovie.. happy merdeka.
p/s: i wanted to cure my wound..but how...just let it be..
i made a string got into a dead knot. theres always one thing in my heart. ''i just hope for a little but (...) cant even give me that little...'' walking away with despairness.. wondering why finally i have chosen this way.. for now, i need to have determination. to keep walkig infront..because i was trying to stay and to start..but (...) just dont want to full filled my last wish.. theres one thing in my heart that i dun wish it to ''convert'' but somehow it has already changed. perhaps i could turn back time..to stop everything.. now it is a silly mistake i have done in my life..once again.. because i though i can change (...) but i cant..
hey peeps, i learned something today.. telepathy refers to the transfer of information on thoughts or feelings between individuals by means other than the five classical senses. Telepathy is a common theme in modern fiction and science fiction, with many superheroes and supervillians having telepathic abilities. Such abilities include sensing thought of others.. yeah basically nothing special about this post..i just finished reading julia's blog and i found this.. soon we will have to kiss goodbye.. is a blithfull memory with you guys.. like U and L..haha i was slower she was faster..hahah nice formation anyway.. credited to Ms .NAVINA..we made Ms.Logesh joined our very LMAO laughters. Ms.Navina actually walking against the escalator without knowing the escalator is moving downward..Joanne was laughing to death..and Ms.Navina got down..she told her she was stressed!!! hahhaha..normally the escalator is not moving..people tend to walk on the wrong side. *never a ballerina.
hey peeps, Joanne had a bad mood today..she missed the great lunch hour with us.. yeah we did some crazy stuff ..not really crazy actually..just insane.. we got attracted by a dress and this triggered our shopping mood.. so,we walked deeper into the mall..we realised that there were alot of hidden shops.. yeah and we found this ''Gown and dress boutique''..(forgot the name)..we went in and yeah behave like ''jakun'' i supposed. we were like ''screaming''..OMG THIS WAS SO NICE..JESSLYNN SEE THIS! VEEVIAN SEE THIS!!! i think im the most insane..so i picked up this hot pink princess design dress and decided to try it.. omg...the worker come in and lend me her hand..yeah u noe wat she did???? she pulled of my bra for me and my tube..omg i was super shy..Jesslynn was laughing outside.. she said dun shy ''you got i also got''(some thailand accent.)..lol yeah finally she wore it for me.. Jesslynn took a simple white dress but the size is too huge for her..so she changed to a smaller one.. Vee vian was wearing the plain white dress..looked elagant..we walking around the shop and yeah she actually took some pictures inside..and the sales girls was wondered why we so long.. den she said': cannot take picture a...haha dey we said no no..hahha wat a big laughter! Jesslynn was having some problem with her dress..which i button the wrong side..haha.. basically thats all..im not going into so much detail cause i dont think you guys will understand what im trying to say..so yeah that all.. have fun with the pic! fun aint it?? we were just like cinderella
peeps you know wat.. it is extremely hard to search a pic of her in my labtop..i was searching up and down for it..haha i found this at last.. p/s:must take more pic of you nex time. um..as u know my blog is so.... pretty ''well known'' by the world.. so if you are a guy who are STILL single, good looking(as long as not ugly) and the most important is the ''SMARTNESS'' (she dont like stupid guy i guess).. you are so welcome to be her ''friend''..yea as you know she is officially 18 now..no first love ,no couple.. sisters are worried!!! haha just joking my dear. enjoy your birthday and have a blast!!!! lovie you..
well..not a very smooth day.. dancing was good..after reached home..Im really stressfull and i have some abnormal thinking.. which was i wished to sleep for a very long time..maybe 10 years, 20 years,40 years.. only me know hows my heart beating.. my life was like up and super down... somehow i cant take it.. my dear God, i wish my life would be happier..im not hoping for wealth and gold..i just need a peace and happy life.. but people around doesnt seems want me to.. personally i dont know.. making me sad or making me feel wrong is it fun? if so, i wish i have a chance to play the role.. im here.alone typing this..i felt sour..sometime the sourness is not just the feeling of enviness..they can be other stuff.. now the matter is ''purpose'' or ''not purpose''..i dont know.. i dun believe in destiny... i dun wan any1 to destine it.. Well i believe in ''me''..this small tiny lil human can control my own destiny..LOL. have a try why not.. sorry ''fate''..mummy still loves u alot.. well kay lets stop here: i have some pics today.. i took it in the car when i was on my way back from dance class. p/s:mind my cute posture..haha no repetition!haha stil have more.. but i must keep some for myself too.. p/s:God, please take my word into consideration.. i just wan to smile.
im back home.. the two days i live in tired , worries , painful and slight elated..
