Teaser time.

Reintroduction of  Current Crew.

Stay tuned for today's post.

So long as I can breathe or I can see, so long lives your love which gives life to me.

I need a very long time to write this post, I'm feeling so weak, as weak as the lost spirit. Few weeks ago, there was this show about this man met an accident and pass on. His spirit was stuck at the accident scene. I saw how suffer was his wife couldn't let go of him. The way she cried, she yelled, she punched the wall each and every moment just went through my heart. I feel her so much, I don't wanna lose my love one. Somehow, I started to imagine....*pressing my heart* I couldn't take it. I couldn't. You can literally feel me, if you had been through the moment where you really love someone so deep. Can I  try to define LOVE?? nothing is called  Love until you actually have the thought of spending your whole life with this one person.  We might be too young to think about this but oh wells...We have crushes, Infatuations, Dates and etc... But there's nothing can compare to this powerful yet destroyable word called the Boyfriend. (I'm young, sorry I don't know anything about marriage thats another level of life) Well, sitting right infront of my TV is the saddest moment I have ever had in life. Her tears, her emotions about the death of her husband really poked through my heart. What's the use of the husband's spirit keeping her company when she can't even feel it. That's probably not the WORST. After the death of her husband, she found out that, her husband has a woman outside and another son. (I will faint)

I remembered what she said this infront of his tomb:
I believe you said you love me the most, I believe you said I'm your only love. But why??

*Put my hand on my forehead and I felt so hot..

I'm tired.

" Hear my soul speak. Of the very instant that I saw you, 

Did my heart fly at your service."

~ William Shakespeare

I love you.

Day passeth day in sunshine or shadow, Night unto night each cycle is told.

I doubt myself if I can survive until tomorrow? Or I will leave before all the good things come to me?. I was left unsaid, I don't understand. When things was totally different from the past,I guess a normal human will feel that something was wrong. I don't know if I'm living under Lies, I don't know if I'm living under Something. It might be I have no idea what is going on somewhere. But seriously, I don't  give a damn about all this feaces.
Sometimes, I just wish I had a robot heart.

Lord, is damn kind. Sacrifies me and brings you happiness. (How fair was this life.)

P/S:If what you said is 100% true, then might as well ignore this post.

Oh and,

P/S: I feel sorry to YOU because you are not even reaching my league.

My bounty is as boundless as the sea.....

Hey people,

Sorry for not updating, life is pretty mundane nowadays and I generally don't feel like crapping up my blog with lame posts. My life had been going up and down. I even encountered the most morbid phase in my life. (Please do not try to guess) I will reveal it when I need to. Basically no big deal. Just a short update about how I'm gonna prepare for another ''nightmare'' soon to come. Did some researches and studies about it, I wish really wish deep down this time to Lord please don't waste my time anymore. Sorry, my writing is a little indirect but I believe before my dream came true I don't wanna talk so much about it. MissyXS's birthday is just around the corner. Stay tuned for her celebration. I'm thinking of something meaningful that I can give her, so she can remember me when we are far apart.

 p/s: I'm feeling sick.

No sooner met but they looked;
No sooner looked but they loved;
No sooner loved but they sighed;
No sooner signed but they asked one another the reason;
No sooner knew the reason but they sought the remedy;
And in these degrees have they made a pair of stairs to marriage...

-- William Shakespeare, As Your Like It

 

 

Note: Yes, no one is perfect. But when you know you are not in the League please face the ugly truth. You know who you are.

 

 

 

 

Hero

Happy Birthday to whoever was borned on this day. It has been a week after new year. How was it? Happy , Sad vice versa right? Mine was okay, I'm pretty relax and calm while writing this. I'm getting ready of a thing that  is gonna happen sooner or later. Yes, yes My next cabin crew interview. Well, I was actually struggled until yesterday. I understand Happiness keeps me sweet, sorrows keep me human, life keeps me humble, success keeps me glowing, but only God keeps me going. I'm not posting alot today because I promise my readers that I will post a short daily update before any event is going on. Today I have a song to share, well I believe everyone heard it before , its called HERO.

Yea, HERO.

If both of you stumbled upon my blog, aiyo please don't perasan. LOL

light's off.

Dental check up day.

 

The picture above already shown clearly what I'm gonna post today. Before any event is going on, just bear with me with my daily update.(those days, what I wrote will make you go OH OH OH) and I don't really have much personal stuff  to write. I'm very satisfied with my life right now. About the Dental check up that I just did , everything went well. I'm not scared, I'm desperate for it. I was kind of terrified when she drilled off part of my front teeth. I was like mumbling in my heart: Hey!! Hello?! I have fashion show coming next week, I have photoshoot. Oh God, Bless me bless me.''  After those sodium , magnesium thingy was added I see my teeth again. Nicer and Better looking.

Nah, don't try to move your eyes nearer cause there's no different plus the poor resolutions of my webcam. So, sorry next time alright?

and this, I was kind of speechless and I guess you will feel the same.

 failed doodle.

Truth Thursday

It's another day that's soon gonna say Goodbye. I'm right here praying to God for ...HOPE. Whatever thats gonna happen, or  the road that is gonna take , I wish the Lord has his decisions, his plan.

Oh and I really love these few pieces of tops in Forever21.I'm totally insane over these jumpers!! And it's all in GREY!!!

*feeling random when I stumbled upon F21's webpage.

 Coming events:

• High School friends reunion
• Twins's birthday
• Bonga for fun!
• Fashion show (on runway)

P/S:I felt people are getting more and more pessimistic nowadays?oh well,  I wondered.

Days are getting better. I cherished every happy moment that I had.


stay tuned.