A day closer, the farewell.

SOBING ALERT!! Veevian will be going back to India tomorrow. I'm seriously gonna miss her alot. I wonder when will be the next time I'm actually sitting down in a coffee shop eating and chating with her. Well, be positive, she left for good. I will be leaving right after her. I'm definitely thousand times happier compare right now. Those lifeless and miserable days, KICK goodbye. It ended like~, finally! We had our last date in 1utama and spending like mad huh Vian? Not many pictures were taken instead we spent most of the time talking and mingled around. I kept telling Vian that I'm not gonna see her very soon and she stopped my conversations. Anyway I will be missing her.

The last lunch that we were having before she go back. 

 I cut my hair and redyed it.

 

Will miss your two tones hair.

She said: All the best to me and herself.

Okay this is the lame-moment-again we actually tried out the clothes in Forever21 for fun.

sorry Vian our picture in the fitting room is too blur to be posted up.

We tried to self shot everywhere we went. Washroom and even the rain forest.

"A good friend is my nearest relation."
"God defend me from my friends: from my enemies I can defend myself."

Have no fear when mum is here.

Have no fear when Mum is here.

Having a great time shopping with mum and I did my hair cut today too. Life is totally full of excitement right now. How good I'm finally free from those disasters. I'm not thinking about it already, hello people around the world. I'm coming!

I was thinking should I post up another diary of journey towards the blue skies.. Well, is still in consideration, anyway this feeling that I'm having right now is totally supercalifragilisticexpialidocious!! Oh it's time to introduce some new characters into this journal of mine. Proudly present you Charlene and Zul. My air colleagues soon to be. Probably will have alot of pictures in the future with them since we are kind of close right now. Just like what Charlene said: Step by step, one day closer to our dreams. This is totally fantastic. Nowadays, I'm seriously not in the picture mood but soon this blog will be flooded with pictures again. I'm sorry cause you need to do some reading right here. I thank God again for all this.  

Did I mention the things above cost around 400 bucks?

Stay tuned for more!!


Blue skies, always. It just gonna start....

Blue skies, always.

 

This picture was taken before my interview accompanied with my very very favourite book. I drag the post until today because I'm still worried about my medical report until they called me this evening saying that I've already cleared my medical. I can't explain the joy that I had at the moment when I found out that I've cleared everything and I'm just gonna leave anytime. Do you wanna know my interview experience? Well, all I can say is totally not easy. You have to be able to stand the pressure from about 2000 hopefuls. Everyone was pretty dressed up, looking extra confident. That's the first thing that you need to get over, your heart. Then of course everything comes with potentials and preparations. Potentials meant you full filled the physical requirements like, for girls at least 158cm with porpotional weight  and guys will be 165cm. Besides, scar-free in the visible area. and etc etc. Preparations will be, grooming, charisma, knowledge and personalities. After you are done with all this, you are ready for the interview. Well, I'm not gonna write out the detail and I believe you can find it online. A total of 6 stages you have to been through. It might alter or change by time.

Stage 1: 2 to 10 interview. Highest probability to get in is 5/10

Stage 2: 1 to 1 interview. Probability unstable. Depends on your answer and 'interviewer's favor'

Stage 3: Kebaya round. (Is all about the basic requirements)

Stage 4: Management round. Probability unstable.

Stage 5: (for girls only) to put on the kebaya again for another round of checking.

Stage 6: Medically fit for flying.

I'm not sure but I heard from my friends not more than 20 made it through and as you can see the probability is just as low as 1%. 

Praise God. Praise God for everything. I made it!

Stay tuned for more updates definitely.

Unexplained feelings.

I couldn't blog like normal these days. But wait for it. Wait for it!!!! It's a whole new world. I'm in love. I'm madly in love..

stay tuned..

Only when you are lonely.

I've this piece of song to share. I wonder if Bruno Mars read my heart before he sang it.. Anyway this is for those, who used to play a bad role in relationship. Enjoy!!



If I say I'm gonna leave, that's the only time you want me
Next time you need me there I won't make it
Another late night call I won't take it
Cause now I finally see, you only want me when you're lonely

Had me fooled from the start and I quickly gave my heart
Cause I loved you, loved you, loved you
Get off your knees, your words don't mean anything

The happiness known.

Hey people, I added some of my primary school friends the other day and Kin Fai told me that one of our classmate got married and have a daughter . I was so happy and I glanced through his wedding pictures, I was like OMG-so-creative! I'm saved some in my computer and I will post only few pictures here. I wish them all the best and I'm really feeling so glad as his primary schoolmate. We played together, fought together and I always complaint about him to his mum last time. 8 years of not meeting each other and he got married already. The joy in me can't be explained through words.

Lovely In bed

Switch role

I love this!!So much!

 

Finally this is the normal one.

Due to copyright, these are the maximum that I can post.

P/S: All the best, to both of you. 

The one more time.

Too many questions running around, it got me trembled. I shouldn't be bothered or even affected because I knew the goods are coming. Somehow, we shouldn't be resentful and infact we learn to forgive. But what if they left a scar in your heart and it's just too deep to heal in a short time because it happened to get hurt again and again. Can you ever imagine? Can you ever imagine?

Can you ever imagine sliding your fingers with a knife and you slide it again and again. The first one is not even healed and there was another. I prayed and prayed, I even convinced myself that I'm just simply unfortunate. Or could it be so damn effing unfortunate that I did the same mistake for twice in my life. I tried to search for an answer, I tried, I tried. I talk to Lord all night, why would I encountered such incident when I behave good through out my 19 years. I love my parents, treat everyone around me the best that I could. I don't deserve this. I don't. When I decided to write this pieces of words, I have reached the end of the road. I've reached a dead end where I don't know where to go so that I can turn alive again. Trust me, my blog readers are gonna burst the meter tomorrow. I wonder, if God gave a heart to everyone why would I fall for a beast.?? I don't have a single anger in me. I was burried under billions trillions of Despairness. The despairness in me are reaching an infinity. This time, I faced it as a grew up person. I used to be very immature to admit a person easily. Admit that the person is good or etc. At the end, I realized that I'm the only naive person to believe. 

It doesn't matter anymore. After all, I still believe in karma but I'm being generous this time, I will pray to God by letting you do whatever you want without any consequences is the biggest donations that I could give. I don't want to count with you as a grew up. Also as the last thing that I could afford to give, for we are once in love...

I was borned sentimental, I won't hurt anyone around me so it turned out that I'm the one who always being hurt. I'm brave enough to walk through it again, but one thing I could say to you, ''It hurts so bad, have mercy..'' 

I'm a fallen angel, looks like.. we are back to square one again...

I deserved you, but you don't deserve me.

If you ever stumbled upon this post, don't feel sorry because it's really too late..